Running The Race.

Here lately I have found myself weary of running the race that God has set before me. My knees and hands are so badly torn up and bloody from all trips and falls I have had during the race. Yet I still get up and continue on until I fall again. I know we all fall short of the glory of God, but I feel like I am falling shorter than everyone else.

Jeremiah 29:11 New Living Translation (NLT) ¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

I am really struggling with this verse right now. Is it God's way of being good to me by having me out of work for a year and a half? To have enough money for bills, but not enough for food or gas? How is this good? All of my credit cards are maxed out, I owe more money than I am bringing in and I can't even tithe to the church regularly like I am supposed to. This is God's plan for good? All of this kills me. It kills me not to be able to tithe like I am supposed to. It kills me to say all the time, "I'm sorry we don't have the money". Not that I am looking for a boat load of money, just enough to go to the grocery store and not have to count up every item we buy to make sure that we don't over spend. To be able to go to a movie with my family, to do something together as a family. Anything! But alas, God is keeping me unemployed. Now you know why I am weary of running this race!

I am not going to let satan knock me out of the race. I am going to keep moving forward, believing in God's word.

Romans 15:4 New Living Translation (NLT) ⁴ Such things were written in the Scriptures long ago to teach us. And the Scriptures give us hope and encouragement as we wait patiently for God’s promises to be fulfilled.

I will continue to pick myself up off of the ground, dust myself off and keep going. God is in control. He knows the whole situation and what to do about it! I'll just keep praising Him and glorifying Him! I have a network of great friends and family that build me up and encourage me when I am down. And for that, I am forever gratefull. Praise the Lord!